Fall Is Here!!!

So tonight's going to be a short one.... 

First of all I'm thankful for every person in my life.  Everyone that has come into my life has made a difference whether they were there for a long time or just a brief time.  No matter how big or small they have had an impact on my life. Today I've come to that conclusion because I realize now more than ever every little or big thing that has happened in my life has turned me into the woman I am today.  So thanks to all of you that have been nice to me or no so nice to me you've helped me to become this person that I am today. The one I never thought would be able to lay in a hospital bed for  the 28 days it started out to be let alone the 67 days I've successfully completed.  And if I do say so I'm kicking @$$ at it!!! So thank you!!

Secondly I am so very thankful for my family.  I know they are going thru so much right now with me being in the hospital and trying to take care of some things going on with grandma.  They are doing a great job at it, and I want them to know especially it doesn't go un-noticed.  They continue to support me thru all of the crazy twists and turns this accident has thrown our way and help to support Travis and I in this rough time. Charlotte will be here before we all know it!!! :-)

So now little things I'm grateful for... for starters being able to get things for myself.  Like when I want a drink of water being able to go get it myself instead of asking for it. Or being able to go to the post office or mail box to mail out my own letters or pick up my own mail.  Also being able to sit up for longer than 15-20 minutes on my own without getting tired or my hip starting to hurt.  Being able to sleep on my side is another thing I cannot wait to do!! Sleeping on my back for this long is driving me nuts. Yes I have gotten used to sleeping on my back but I miss sleeping on my belly and my side.

Until Tomorrow, have a great day and enjoy the fall colors and the fall weather <3 

Making up for lost time

Sorry its been a while since I've updated you all.  I've been in quite a bit of pain from the kidney stones.  They make me quite uncomfortable making it almost impossible for me to sit up and type or to remain comfortable for longer than 5 minutes.  But today I've figured out how to lay down and type at the same time.  

Yesterday was my birthday as most of you know.  I am quite thankful for all of my family and friends that wished me a happy birthday.  I'm thankful that birthdays mean so much to my family because they make the day truly feel all about you and a true celebration of your life.  Even though I am in the hospital and its not ideally where I want to celebrate my birthday at least I was able to celebrate with them. I was alive to share this birthday with them.  I am thankful for the 24 wonderful birthdays I have had with them. 

I know I've said this before but I really am very thankful for my amazing husband and our strong little angel.  Days are becoming longer for me and starting to get harder more emotional.  However, my husband and daughter are my light at the end of this long tunnel.  I cannot wait for the day to go home and be with my wonderful family.  I keep telling Travis when I can get home I will never be letting him leave me.  Travis has been so supportive thru this crazy time.  He has listened to my meltdowns over simple things that normally wouldn't upset me.  He will be an incredibly amazing father I'm sure of it.  When some people wouldn't be able to handle situations like this he has faced it head on with me and stayed right beside me going out of his way to do anything he can to support me.  He's truly my angel and the love of my life.

I'm thankful for my mom and my mother in law for all they have done to get the baby showers together for our family.  I know a lot of people think that we should wait until I am released from the hospital but what I think some are forgetting is after 10 weeks of being in a hospital room I need something to look forward to, something to help pass the time and help keep my spirits up.  The baby shower was planned when we thought I was coming home after 6 weeks, therefore I had already started looking forward to it.  To have that taken from me at this point would be heartbreaking.  We have lost so much as a family because of this accident and the poor decision of one person that we were not going to let her take anything else from us.  So thank you to all that have helped plan and that are going to help pull off the two showers for us. We greatly appreciate it!

Little things I am thankful for and cannot wait to do.... Make a home cooked meals and bake anything!!! I can't wait to be able to cook a wonderful dinner for my family and bake anything I want for dessert.  Something I look forward to this year thanksgiving and Christmas.  Hopefully I will be able to walk by thanksgiving but I know that Charlotte will be very loved and our family will have alot to be thankful for this year.  Christmas is our favorite time of year I cant wait to start decorating and seeing all the Christmas lights. Charlotte is going to have a truly amazing first Christmas!  I also look forward to setting up Charlotte's room when she gets home.  The closer it gets to her arrival the more excited I am about anything that involves her and Travis.  I am very excited, thankful and blessed to have my amazing family!! 

Until tomorrow <3  ohhh and for those of you posting the pictures of the leaves or texting me pictures of the changing leaves--- Thank you!!! I love them!!!

Making up for a skipped day

Sorry to all that read daily that I missed last night I was in some pretty bad pain and not really able to tolerate sitting up. 

Today I'm thankful for my health.  Although I may be lying in a hospital bed at least I've remained remotely healthy other than the kidney stones and liver stuff.  But my body is overall healthy for our daughter.  I realize that I could be far worse off than just a few bumps here and there.  And those bumps really are tiny bumps that could be so much worse but  I have been so blessed that they are bumps that we have been able to get figured out and I'm recovering so much better now.  If it weren't for my leg being bummed up I would be home but thats something I have come to accept.  I mean honestly if I was home there would be no way for me to see my daughter or hear her heart beat as often as we do.  And as i was reminded a few weeks ago our little girl will be a celebrity I mean how many babies do we know get their pictures taken weekly for 10 weeks?!? I love every picture and cherish each and every one of them.

Secondly I'm thankful for toes.  Sounds funny I know!! Trust me But the ultrasound today showed little miss Charlotte sucking on her toes.  It made me giggle I never thought I would be so excited to see those little toes right to her mouth and her sucking on them. She looks so content just having her toes, not a single care in the world.  Not only am I thankful for her toes but for mine.  Our niece used to come and paint them over the summer when her schedule wasnt so crazy and deffinatly I appreciated it.  It made me feel like a real human being some days.  They are still the pretty pink she painted them last.  But now shes back to school with a crazy busy schedule so the pink will stay until she gets a chance to repaint them but until then it reminds me of her.  And every time a doctor comments on them I smile because I know someone very special painted them just for me. 

Simple things to be thankful for hair cuts is the first on my list.  The last hair cut I had was the day of the accident and thank goodness I got it cut that night.  I think if it was any longer than it was that night my parents would have a more difficult time washing it for me. So as soon as I'm able to I will be going to get a haircut and having a full "beauty" day to get myself back to looking somewhat normal.  Second thing I am thankful for laughter its the best medicine.  Although I've had some very emotional days I always remember laughter is the best medicine and whenever I have the chance to laugh I do especially the days I have company to laugh with especially days like today when my family comes to visit.   So share a funny story or a joke or two because you never know who you could be helping with that laughter.  

Have a wonderful evening <3

feeling a bit better

So I have yet again another confused roommate.  This one however thinks she is in Italy and all she keeps asking for is a cigarette lighter and some vino.  She however sleeps at night so I get a bit more sleep than with the last confused roommate.  She has been asking for her cat all day so today it makes me miss my puppy.  My puppy Bella is like my child already, she always seemed to be able to brighten my day up.  I miss laying in bed cuddling with her or just being greeted by her when i get home from work, she was always so excited to see me.  My mom keeps telling me she still looks out the window when they get there because she hears the car door shut and hopes its mommy coming back home. 

I also miss my job - I know some of you may be thinking that I'm crazy.  I miss my fellow nurses, fellow staff and all of the students.  Even though there were trying days with things that may have been going on at least I was able to go to work and try to help others.  I'm hoping I may be able to return to work one day but only time will tell with my injury it might not be possible. But every person I have ever worked with made a difference in my life and I am so grateful for each and every one of them. 

I'm so incredibly lucky to be alive.  I've been thinking about that so much lately.  So many people ask me how I can stay so strong.  Well  here's just a few reasons why...October 18, 2008 I lost my best friend in an accident.  Meghan was killed by a drunk driver.  Between her, Charlotte, and Travis they keep me going. Meghan didn't get the chance to live her life to the fullest so it makes me realize that i am so incredibly blessed to still be alive. I may be struggling right now and have some struggles to face still but at least I know I will get that opportunity to face those struggles.  Not only I am still alive but that Travis and Charlotte are both still alive, some people aren't so lucky.  So whenever someone asks me how I stay so strong that's my answer because we had angels watching over us that night that saved our lives.  I'm lucky to be alive.  And we will continue to face the struggles together with the support of our family and friends.

Little things I'm thankful for today water!! Ice water for that matter some of you may think its crazy that I'm so thankful for water.  But I've had tons of kidney stones lately and drinking tons of water is helping them to pass. The more I drink the better it is.  Another thing Netflix and Amazon Prime. They have been my saving grace during the hospital stay.  I absolutely refused to pay the $5.50 daily for tv.  Instead I would rather pay for the netflix and amazon and be able to watch shows without commercials or watch movies at my leisure.  Its kept me busy and I've been able to watch several shows.  There's not much else for me to do.  But I do have tons of cross stitching thanks to my aunt that I've been working on but the more time i have the more time i think it should look perfect so if it doesn't look right I tear it out and start again. Then there's the cross words and word finds that also keep me busy.  So I'm thankful for those busy distractions that keep me going all day! 

Until Tomorrow Goodnight everyone<3

Just a short one tonight

Today after talking with my roommate from college and her mom about some activities that go on in the fall made me realize I am thankful for the changing of the seasons.  I love that in new york we get to see the changing of the leaves in fall the first snow fall of the winter the wonderful blossoms of the spring and the excruciatingly hot days of the summer. Fall is my favorite time of year.  The changing of the leaves is my favorite thing to see this time of year.  So when the leaves start changing colors think of me and take a picture or two.  I won't get a chance to see them in person this year because it will probably be November before I make my break out of this place. So put some pictures on facebook for me!  Apple picking is another thing to do up there on the list so pick and extra apple or two. And enjoy the smells and sights of the fall.  

Today my parents came to visit just as they do every Sunday.  Well I had an awful headache so they let me sleep. Thank goodness.  But they help me get cleaned up and wash my hair.  I think dad likes helping wash my hair because he gets to soak me then say sorry I didnt mean that.  But I deffinatly miss showers.  I cannot wait until the day i can take a shower again.  So when your taking a shower tonight or tomorrow morning stay in an extra minute or two for me.  That way I will get a nice long shower vicariously thru all of you. =]

Tonights entry is fairly short, I've got a pretty bad headache but I promise I'll make up for it tomorrow <3

Day 56...The journey continues

After being in traction for 56 days I finally convinced my hubby he could lay in the hospital bed and cuddle with me.  It was the most wonderful feeling in the world to get to cuddle with him after not cuddling for so long.  So today I appreciate my amazingly wonderful supportive husband.  Last night was really rough for me so I called him every few hours to give him an update on how baby and I were doing and he faithfully answered the phone every time I called - even though he had worked a 13 hour day and was exhausted.  Some people would sleep right thru phone calls but he worries about his wife and daughter.  He's such a selfless person he thinks of everyone else before himself.  He would do anything to help me if there was anything he could do.  So I feel very lucky and blessed to have such a wonderful husband and father to my daughter. 
So many people have helped my family and I out so much since the accident.  From my amazing sorority sister starting a fundraiser to help with my Tastefully Simple, to people that don't even know me ordering from the cause, or the donations people have sent for our family or the many cards and gifts we've received its all been greatly appreciated.  It puts so much faith in me to know that there are still such wonderful people in the world, and we are very blessed to have them in our lives.  So thank you to those wonderful people that have shown such support to us in this difficult time for us.  It always brightens my spirits when I get those random get well cards or those just to say hello cards, the packages with the activities to help pass time, the random flowers and just the messages checking in.  I know that my husband and I are very loved and cared about and I'm quite certain our daughter will be so loved and cared about! Thank you so much to everyone who has done anything for us no matter how big or small it is greatly appreciated!!! We love you all!

Little things to be thankful for today well mine truly are very little things.  First bending your knee.  My knee has been straight since I've been in traction. And for those of you that I've talked to I keep saying what I wouldn't give to be able to bend my knee.  I can only imagine the long road it will take me to be able to bend it again.  But when I can finally bend it again I'm quite positive I'll sleep much better.  Plus I'll be able to walk when I can bend it again which is so close I can start to see that light!!!   Secondly I'm thankful for phones. Because of the wonderful technology of phones I am able to talk to family and friends that live all over near and far.  It allows me to keep in touch with people and keep them up to date on what is happening and how Charlotte is doing.  So take the minute or two to pick up the phone and call that loved one you haven't talked to in a while. It will help you both appreciate the technology we have! <3

So Far So Good...Lets Try Again

So today I've got a few more lessons learned.


As some of you may read on Facebook I had a confused roommate she was 86 years old. Bless her heart. She had no clue where she was or what she was doing here. Her family would come visit and she would be okay because they would take the time to explain to her where she was and what she was doing here - but as soon as she left she was confused again. Now at first it was comical to hear her ask questions that to me seemed silly. But she left today and as I talked to one of the techs he put it in perspective for me.  Shes made it to 86 years old, up until recently she was with it she knew where she was and what she was doing.  Now all of a sudden to be confused and not know where you are or whats going on its got to be scary.  I cant imagine being in a strange place and having no clue what is going on. So as the tech and I talked it made me realize how very lucky I am to still have all my "wits" about me.  To know what I'm doing here and why I'm here.  It makes me think if my anyone in my family ever got that way would I be able to remain as supportive as her family has? I'd like to say yes but I'm really not so sure.  Her family had such patience about them to keep reminding her what had happened. And of course I love everyone in my family and would try to be as supportive as possible but I would feel awful for them to be so lost and confused. So today that's what I think about is how much I love my family and friends and hope that no one has to experience that and if they do that we can be just half as supportive as my confused roommate.

Now I've been thru quite a few roommates in my time here.  Some nicer than others. But one thing I can honestly say I have learned thru the rotating roommates is that I'm very blessed for all that I have.  I have a wonderful supportive and loving family, great friends, I have a wonderful baby on the way, an amazing husband and I'm just entirely overwelmed with the love and support I have in my life. 

The little things I've learned to appreciated today well that's very simple for me. First of all just standing up and giving hugs.  I miss being able to stand up and wrap my arms around my husband and the rest of my family and friends and give them a hug.  Instead I give them the akward side hug because I can't embrace them the way I could if I was standing up and not stuck to a bed. So every chance you get give just one extra hug and appreciate that hug. Even though the accident happened on our way home from a date night I miss my date nights with my husband. Even though we couldn't afford to do much we always made time to go out and enjoy ourselves out once in a while, even if it was just walking around window shopping and grabbing Chinese food in the mall for dinner.  We always made the time to spend with each other.  I cannot wait to be able to have a date night with him and our little angel. 

 I hope you all enjoy reading my blog and continue to follow us thru this time.  <3

Trying out this blogging thing

As most of you  that are reading this probably already know the story of whats going on in my life...But for those of you that may not know I'll give you the short version. I'm pregnant my husband and i are expecting our first baby girl. My husband and I were involved in a car accident back in July. Well long story short everyone is okay, my hubby, daughter and myself...well I'm okay with the exception I've been in the hospital for 54 days today in traction...which for some of you may not know is laying in bed all day every day 24/7. Yes that means no showering, no getting up to go to the bathroom ahhh yeah it sucks but I'm making the best of it and learning TONS of lessons along the way.  Many nurses friends and family have told me I should start a blog because of everything we've been thru.  So I thought I would share some of my lessons learned and some of the experiences.

I think most important lesson I've learned is that I'm so incredibly blessed. I have an incredible support system with my family and friends. Even though my parents and I haven't always seen eye to eye on a lot of things they have been absolutely amazing and supportive.  My husband's family have been great from the cards every week to the phone calls they are always checking up on us.  My friends have been wonderful with the calls and texts and just the simple check ups to see how I'm doing. You learn to appreciate the little moments in life when faced with something hard like this. 

I've learned the nurses here are absolutely amazing-- i know not really something I've learned but something i definitely appreciate.  After 54 days one would think they would be sick of me but they still come in every day with a smile on their face and take terrific care of us. They come in and treat you with the best care possible. After having these wonderful nurses I've decided that when I can go back to nursing school to get my RN I'm going to rock it and work so hard at it to become one of these amazing nurses that patients love. 

My daughter is very loved.  When she is born everyone is going to just fall in love with her. We've spent quite a bit of time worrying about her.  Hoping and praying she is going to be okay.  We know that she is going to be a strong fighter and she will be an incredible little girl. Its an incredible feeling having her move inside my belly.  Its really rough not being able to have her daddy be able to see her grow and feeling her move everyday but he loves her unconditionally and the days he is here he loves feeling her move and talking to her.  I know shes already going to be daddy's little angel.  

APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS!! Sometimes you get lost in the every day to day life and forget to appreciate the little things. This is something that I've come to realize probably in my first few days here. But I know when I get home and get walking again I will appreciate being able to cook, to clean, to fold laundry. I know some days you just don't feel like doing those things but these are some of the things I miss doing.  Other things you forget to be thankful for - bathrooms, showers, running water things that some don't have. I cannot wait until the day that I can go into my bathroom and pee and take a shower and stand at the sink to be able to brush my teeth.  Somethings I'm just very appreciative for....that is when I can use them.... =]

Well I think that's where I'll leave it for today.  I learn something new every day so I will post again tomorrow <3 Thanks for reading =]