So I have yet again another confused roommate. This one however thinks she is in Italy and all she keeps asking for is a cigarette lighter and some vino. She however sleeps at night so I get a bit more sleep than with the last confused roommate. She has been asking for her cat all day so today it makes me miss my puppy. My puppy Bella is like my child already, she always seemed to be able to brighten my day up. I miss laying in bed cuddling with her or just being greeted by her when i get home from work, she was always so excited to see me. My mom keeps telling me she still looks out the window when they get there because she hears the car door shut and hopes its mommy coming back home.
I also miss my job - I know some of you may be thinking that I'm crazy. I miss my fellow nurses, fellow staff and all of the students. Even though there were trying days with things that may have been going on at least I was able to go to work and try to help others. I'm hoping I may be able to return to work one day but only time will tell with my injury it might not be possible. But every person I have ever worked with made a difference in my life and I am so grateful for each and every one of them.
I'm so incredibly lucky to be alive. I've been thinking about that so much lately. So many people ask me how I can stay so strong. Well here's just a few reasons why...October 18, 2008 I lost my best friend in an accident. Meghan was killed by a drunk driver. Between her, Charlotte, and Travis they keep me going. Meghan didn't get the chance to live her life to the fullest so it makes me realize that i am so incredibly blessed to still be alive. I may be struggling right now and have some struggles to face still but at least I know I will get that opportunity to face those struggles. Not only I am still alive but that Travis and Charlotte are both still alive, some people aren't so lucky. So whenever someone asks me how I stay so strong that's my answer because we had angels watching over us that night that saved our lives. I'm lucky to be alive. And we will continue to face the struggles together with the support of our family and friends.
Little things I'm thankful for today water!! Ice water for that matter some of you may think its crazy that I'm so thankful for water. But I've had tons of kidney stones lately and drinking tons of water is helping them to pass. The more I drink the better it is. Another thing Netflix and Amazon Prime. They have been my saving grace during the hospital stay. I absolutely refused to pay the $5.50 daily for tv. Instead I would rather pay for the netflix and amazon and be able to watch shows without commercials or watch movies at my leisure. Its kept me busy and I've been able to watch several shows. There's not much else for me to do. But I do have tons of cross stitching thanks to my aunt that I've been working on but the more time i have the more time i think it should look perfect so if it doesn't look right I tear it out and start again. Then there's the cross words and word finds that also keep me busy. So I'm thankful for those busy distractions that keep me going all day!
Until Tomorrow Goodnight everyone<3
we miss you Robin. I miss my partner in crime, I miss being able to call you up and tell you what has happened now (because as we know.... anything is possible!!!) but most of all I miss seeing the joy in your eyes and hearing your laughter. I wish you were here so I could cater to you during your pregnancy as you did to me. Not a moment went by that you didn't put me first and I wish I could give you that same respect. I miss you soooo much and I can't wait for Miss Charlotte to arrive so you may start a brand new chapter in your life...a chapter that will be filled with so much joy these past few months will all seem worth it.
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