now starts the hard part...recovery

So I know its been a very long time since I've blogged....Our life has been a bit crazy....but for those of you that don't know we made it home Charlotte Travis and I are staying with my parents until I can get back on my feet....literally 

So first of all I've had to learn patience...not only with my daughter but with this recovery.  It's not happening as fast as I want it to but I've come to understand with alot of encouragement from my family that in time it will happen but it takes just that...time.  Ive had quite a few meltdowns in my week home but thank god for Travis because he reminds me every day that I am strong enough to get thru this and that he will be here with our daughter no matter what.  He has helped me thru some of the roughest days that I've had since coming home.  

My daughter has taught me so many things. Her life is so precious and I see that every day.  I am so lucky that she made it thru this just as strong as ever.  She went thru so many things in her first few days of life that now she is stronger than ever.  She shows me every day that its the little things that don't matter.  She is my biggest motivation to get better.  I know now that no matter how slow or fast it takes for me to recover from this she will be there.  Shes also shown me how easy it is to unconditionally love.  I love her and her daddy so much more than I ever thought I could love anyone.  They are my life and my everything and I thank god every day that we all survived that accident and that we can now be a family. 

I've also learned it is deffinatly not summer anymore.  The day I left the hospital the cold air hit my face and showed me very fast that its deffinatly not 90 degrees out anymore.  But with that being said the holidays are fastly approaching.  Thanksgiving is right around the corner I can hardly believe it.  I thought for sure I would be able to help cook thanksgiving dinner this year...welll that probably isn't going to happen but I can sure try.   Even if I cant help cook I know my dad will do a fantastic job at cooking as he always does. 

I'm so thankful for my friends.  I had a friend and her daughter visit me today and it was a great visit..It made me actually feel like a normal person instead of someone that can't do much for myself. I know that our daughters will be friends when they grow up.  If my friends daughter is anything like her mom she will be an amazing friend to Charlotte no matter where their lives may take them. My friends have helped me thru what I think it the hardest thing I will ever go thru in my life and continues to show their support which is greatly appreciated.  

I'm thankful for the mental breakdowns I have.  Many of you may be thinking whatttt is the matter with you?!? But nothing is the matter with me I'm thankful I am able to have these breakdowns.  I know that I am strong enough to be weak and have emotional days. I also know that I have amazing support to help me get thru these weak days.  The weak days hopefully will get fewer and farer between but until then thank you to everyone that has helped me thru them including my mom, dad, hubby, daughter, family and friends.  You've all dealt with so much to help me and I greatly appreciate it. 

I hope everyone enjoys everyday good or bad because everyday is a gift. I learned in a very difficult way that everyday is a gift so take it from someone that learned the hard way....Appreciate your every day. Take the good with the bad come back better than ever and learn from your mistakes.  Appreciate every person in your life.  They all mean well...well atleast most of them.  Enjoy the rest of the day until next posting <3