So I know its been a very long time since I've blogged....Our life has been a bit crazy....but for those of you that don't know we made it home Charlotte Travis and I are staying with my parents until I can get back on my feet....literally
So first of all I've had to learn patience...not only with my daughter but with this recovery. It's not happening as fast as I want it to but I've come to understand with alot of encouragement from my family that in time it will happen but it takes just that...time. Ive had quite a few meltdowns in my week home but thank god for Travis because he reminds me every day that I am strong enough to get thru this and that he will be here with our daughter no matter what. He has helped me thru some of the roughest days that I've had since coming home.
My daughter has taught me so many things. Her life is so precious and I see that every day. I am so lucky that she made it thru this just as strong as ever. She went thru so many things in her first few days of life that now she is stronger than ever. She shows me every day that its the little things that don't matter. She is my biggest motivation to get better. I know now that no matter how slow or fast it takes for me to recover from this she will be there. Shes also shown me how easy it is to unconditionally love. I love her and her daddy so much more than I ever thought I could love anyone. They are my life and my everything and I thank god every day that we all survived that accident and that we can now be a family.
I've also learned it is deffinatly not summer anymore. The day I left the hospital the cold air hit my face and showed me very fast that its deffinatly not 90 degrees out anymore. But with that being said the holidays are fastly approaching. Thanksgiving is right around the corner I can hardly believe it. I thought for sure I would be able to help cook thanksgiving dinner this year...welll that probably isn't going to happen but I can sure try. Even if I cant help cook I know my dad will do a fantastic job at cooking as he always does.
I'm so thankful for my friends. I had a friend and her daughter visit me today and it was a great visit..It made me actually feel like a normal person instead of someone that can't do much for myself. I know that our daughters will be friends when they grow up. If my friends daughter is anything like her mom she will be an amazing friend to Charlotte no matter where their lives may take them. My friends have helped me thru what I think it the hardest thing I will ever go thru in my life and continues to show their support which is greatly appreciated.
I'm thankful for the mental breakdowns I have. Many of you may be thinking whatttt is the matter with you?!? But nothing is the matter with me I'm thankful I am able to have these breakdowns. I know that I am strong enough to be weak and have emotional days. I also know that I have amazing support to help me get thru these weak days. The weak days hopefully will get fewer and farer between but until then thank you to everyone that has helped me thru them including my mom, dad, hubby, daughter, family and friends. You've all dealt with so much to help me and I greatly appreciate it.
I hope everyone enjoys everyday good or bad because everyday is a gift. I learned in a very difficult way that everyday is a gift so take it from someone that learned the hard way....Appreciate your every day. Take the good with the bad come back better than ever and learn from your mistakes. Appreciate every person in your life. They all mean well...well atleast most of them. Enjoy the rest of the day until next posting <3
Monday, November 4, 2013
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Welcome to mommyhood
Well since the last blog my life has completely changed. We welcomed our perfect baby girl. On October 16, 2013 10:40am we welcomed Charlotte Ryann into the world at 6lbs 10oz. So since then I've learned to appreciate sooooo many things.
One I appreciate my amazing husband. Not only is he an amazing husband he is an amazing daddy. He knows exactly what to do and when to do it. You can clearly tell she is already such a daddy's girl. She loves being rocked in his arms and just laying on his chest. I know it will be difficult for him to return home tomorrow without her but I know he is going to stay strong but miss his little girl so much. And I know Charlotte will miss daddy feeding her and burping her. Mommy cant get her quite upright enough to burp her really well especially being in bed. Travis is such an amazing man and I am truly lucky to have him. I know you are all probably getting really tired of reading about how great he is. But I never ever want him to think he isn't an amazing man because he has done so much and sacrificed so much for Charlotte and I. To me that is something that no matter how many times I say it he will never know how much I truly appreciate and love him.
I appreciate the amazing NICU and OB nurses for helping Charlotte Daddy and I get used to this new life. Charlotte is such an amazing little girl and the nurses have all fallen in love with her. Daddy and I are thankful for all the nurses that have shown us the little tricks of the trade on breast feeding, changing diapers, getting her to stop crying, bottle feeding and everything else that Charlotte needs. There are times mommy gets frustrated especially when breast feeding that daddy is able to help because of the handy hints the nursing staff have shown him and I. The NICU nurses helped daddy feed Charlotte her first bottle and he did an amazing job with it! They showed him the tricks to get her to eat more when he thought she wouldn't eat anymore.
I'm thankful for all the visitors we have had and everyone that shared their love for Charlotte. I know this little angel is so loved by so many people. I know she loves all the attention =] She has been amazing thru all of the visitors and being held by everyone. All the visitors and everyone that has shown their love for Charlotte have made this an amazing experience. We all know no pregnancy was meant to go like this but for me trying to look on the positive side of things, I think we have gained so much out of it. Charlotte now has so many people that love and support her - which she would have absolutely had so many if none of this happened- but she has the love and support of everyone she has met. I know she has changed each persons life that knows about her and our story even if its just a tiny bit or a huge bit she has made a positive difference. She made it thru so much and still came out so perfect.
Little thing to be thankful for this week I simply have one thing and its not so little.....LIFE....I am so thankful for not only my life but all of my loved ones but life in general. Its such an amazing miracle. So appreciate life and the life of all living things around you. <3
One I appreciate my amazing husband. Not only is he an amazing husband he is an amazing daddy. He knows exactly what to do and when to do it. You can clearly tell she is already such a daddy's girl. She loves being rocked in his arms and just laying on his chest. I know it will be difficult for him to return home tomorrow without her but I know he is going to stay strong but miss his little girl so much. And I know Charlotte will miss daddy feeding her and burping her. Mommy cant get her quite upright enough to burp her really well especially being in bed. Travis is such an amazing man and I am truly lucky to have him. I know you are all probably getting really tired of reading about how great he is. But I never ever want him to think he isn't an amazing man because he has done so much and sacrificed so much for Charlotte and I. To me that is something that no matter how many times I say it he will never know how much I truly appreciate and love him.
I appreciate the amazing NICU and OB nurses for helping Charlotte Daddy and I get used to this new life. Charlotte is such an amazing little girl and the nurses have all fallen in love with her. Daddy and I are thankful for all the nurses that have shown us the little tricks of the trade on breast feeding, changing diapers, getting her to stop crying, bottle feeding and everything else that Charlotte needs. There are times mommy gets frustrated especially when breast feeding that daddy is able to help because of the handy hints the nursing staff have shown him and I. The NICU nurses helped daddy feed Charlotte her first bottle and he did an amazing job with it! They showed him the tricks to get her to eat more when he thought she wouldn't eat anymore.
I'm thankful for all the visitors we have had and everyone that shared their love for Charlotte. I know this little angel is so loved by so many people. I know she loves all the attention =] She has been amazing thru all of the visitors and being held by everyone. All the visitors and everyone that has shown their love for Charlotte have made this an amazing experience. We all know no pregnancy was meant to go like this but for me trying to look on the positive side of things, I think we have gained so much out of it. Charlotte now has so many people that love and support her - which she would have absolutely had so many if none of this happened- but she has the love and support of everyone she has met. I know she has changed each persons life that knows about her and our story even if its just a tiny bit or a huge bit she has made a positive difference. She made it thru so much and still came out so perfect.
Little thing to be thankful for this week I simply have one thing and its not so little.....LIFE....I am so thankful for not only my life but all of my loved ones but life in general. Its such an amazing miracle. So appreciate life and the life of all living things around you. <3
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Last post before the Csection tomorrow
So tomorrow Travis and I will officially welcome our precious little angel into this crazy world. We are so very excited. I'm a good combination of excited and nervous and I think Travis is too.
As we get ready to welcome this precious miracle to our lives I am very thankful to have made it to 36 weeks. With our first scare that they may have to deliver her at 24 weeks we have come so very far. I am also thankful to know that she has the best possible care with the best nurses. They keep telling me there is slim to no chance she will need to go to the NICU with the exception of the med withdrawls. Which I'm hoping she will not have to go thru. The nursing staff from OB/NICU/Ortho have all been amazing and Charlotte and our family will be in all of their hearts tomorrow I'm sure of it.
I'm so glad Charlotte will be able to stay with me until I am discharged with the help of my wonderful hubby and my mom. This will be a learning experience for Travis and I and I have every faith that we will do an amazing job at raising Charlotte into an amazing young woman. I know Travis will be an amazing daddy and that our families will support us thru the next few months which will be rough with my recovery but as a family we will get thru it and come thru stronger than ever. I know that Charlotte will grow up with an amazing sense of family and know how truly important family is because at the end of the day they are the ones that will stand by you and take care of you when you need it most. We are so blessed to have the amazing families that we have and the amazing family we have created together!
I'm so thankful there is an end in sight. As much as I loved being pregnant and feeling Charlotte move around, seeing the ultrasounds and knowing that I had this beautiful little miracle that I could care for I will be happy to have her here finally, and the morning sickness to disappear. And to be able to have my hip surgery in just a few short days then be able to make my way home!! On October 28th I will have been here for 100 days!! Can you believe it?!? I know I can't. I still wonder how I made it to 90 days without loosing my mind. I think it has so much to do with my family and my nurses I knew I could talk to them about anything. They all helped time fly by. I found things to do and things to keep me busy even though there's not so much you can do laying in a bed. But I know after this is all over with it will all be worth it to have me home and be on the road to recovery finally.
Little things to be thankful for tonight are support of others no matter how big or small. Family even if they do drive you crazy sometimes. Sometimes its the craziness that makes you appreciate them just a little bit more. For those of you that are parents appreciate your kids. I bet they drive you the craziest out of anyone but be thankful for them, I know some parents that would give anything to have their children back. So count your blessings every night and appreciate all the little things.
As I finish up for tonight two of my wonderful nurses came in. They made me a scrapbook page for Charlotte's scrapbook. It has beautiful pictures from the baby shower and everyone wrote a nice message to us. I cannot say enough good things about these fantastic nurses they are all amazing and all of them have hearts made of gold! Charlotte will not only be a member of our huge family she will forever be a C6 baby =] (even though we are on B3 now) <3
As we get ready to welcome this precious miracle to our lives I am very thankful to have made it to 36 weeks. With our first scare that they may have to deliver her at 24 weeks we have come so very far. I am also thankful to know that she has the best possible care with the best nurses. They keep telling me there is slim to no chance she will need to go to the NICU with the exception of the med withdrawls. Which I'm hoping she will not have to go thru. The nursing staff from OB/NICU/Ortho have all been amazing and Charlotte and our family will be in all of their hearts tomorrow I'm sure of it.
I'm so glad Charlotte will be able to stay with me until I am discharged with the help of my wonderful hubby and my mom. This will be a learning experience for Travis and I and I have every faith that we will do an amazing job at raising Charlotte into an amazing young woman. I know Travis will be an amazing daddy and that our families will support us thru the next few months which will be rough with my recovery but as a family we will get thru it and come thru stronger than ever. I know that Charlotte will grow up with an amazing sense of family and know how truly important family is because at the end of the day they are the ones that will stand by you and take care of you when you need it most. We are so blessed to have the amazing families that we have and the amazing family we have created together!
I'm so thankful there is an end in sight. As much as I loved being pregnant and feeling Charlotte move around, seeing the ultrasounds and knowing that I had this beautiful little miracle that I could care for I will be happy to have her here finally, and the morning sickness to disappear. And to be able to have my hip surgery in just a few short days then be able to make my way home!! On October 28th I will have been here for 100 days!! Can you believe it?!? I know I can't. I still wonder how I made it to 90 days without loosing my mind. I think it has so much to do with my family and my nurses I knew I could talk to them about anything. They all helped time fly by. I found things to do and things to keep me busy even though there's not so much you can do laying in a bed. But I know after this is all over with it will all be worth it to have me home and be on the road to recovery finally.
Little things to be thankful for tonight are support of others no matter how big or small. Family even if they do drive you crazy sometimes. Sometimes its the craziness that makes you appreciate them just a little bit more. For those of you that are parents appreciate your kids. I bet they drive you the craziest out of anyone but be thankful for them, I know some parents that would give anything to have their children back. So count your blessings every night and appreciate all the little things.
As I finish up for tonight two of my wonderful nurses came in. They made me a scrapbook page for Charlotte's scrapbook. It has beautiful pictures from the baby shower and everyone wrote a nice message to us. I cannot say enough good things about these fantastic nurses they are all amazing and all of them have hearts made of gold! Charlotte will not only be a member of our huge family she will forever be a C6 baby =] (even though we are on B3 now) <3
Thursday, October 10, 2013
catching up for long lost time
“The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen.”
- Ralph Marston
Tonight I thought I'd start this blog off with this quote I found. This sums my thoughts up perfectly. I hope you enjoy this blog. I will be working on trying to blog more diligently and more than just once a week.
First of all I want to say Thank You to everyone that has read my blogs, sent me messages, sent me cards, sent good thoughts our way, prayed for us and everyone that has done anything for us! It is greatly appreciated and we are so very grateful for each and everyone one of you. I know I say it alot and talk about it alot but Travis and I have amazing support system. I am told quite often how strong of a person I am and how great of a mom I'm going to be, but I tell Travis as much as I am told that I wonder if its really true. Then I realize I am strong and I will get thru this and it will make me a better person -- but the only way I have remained strong and positive thru all of this is the amazing people that support me, my family, my friends, my nurses, my doctors everyone that comes into my life help me to stay positive.
I cannot believe in just over 5 short days our little angel will be welcomed into this world. As boring as it has been laying in bed day after day and not being able to show off my baby belly that I am so very proud to have, I have to say time has gone by surprisingly very fast. The closer it gets to Charlotte's arrival date I realize also more and more that she has so many guardian angels looking out for her. Travis and I have lost several people very close to us for me my Aunt Jeanne and my best friend Meghan, for Travis his brother Matthew and his grandfather. We both know that all four of them are looking out for not only Charlotte but for both of us. She will have those angels thru her entire life to watch out for her and protect her.
I've been in a private room now for over a week now, there's a few things I've noticed since moving. Not having a roommate sometimes is lonely. As not so much fun as it was having the confused roommates or the roommates in pain at least there was someone for you to talk to or if they couldn't or wouldn't talk to you then at least they had nurses in and out many times. I have great nurses but I'm pretty independent so I really don't like to bother them unless I need something. However the nurses have been fantastic and even if I'm not their patient for the day they come in and check on me. A few of them even tell me they think about me when they go home. My favorite is one of my nurses told me today she had a dream that I had Charlotte on Tuesday so she was going to call on her day off to see if her dream was true. They are truly amazing nurses and I hope to be 1/2 as good of a nurse as some of them. Another thing I've noticed now that I dont have a roommate I enjoy cross stitching at 2am. I don't have to worry about disturbing my roommate with the light. So from 12-2am is usually when I get most of my cross stitching done. I think just because the hallways are quiet and its just a good time to think about things. So thank you to Aunt Cathy for sending me all of the cross stitching I'm working on it to get it all done and I love all of them!!
5 days!! Can you believe it?!? I know I can't!! So I'm thankful that there are just 5 days left. I'm thankful to have such an amazing husband that will be a fantastic daddy! He has already done so much to get ready for our daughter to join us - from sorting her clothes, installing carseats, buying last minute things we haven't gotten yet and looking up things we should know before she gets here. I can't wait to see the amazing man I married hold our daughter for the first time. I know I worry about how he is going to do in the operating room because lets face it child birth is messy let alone a csection but I know once he sees our beautiful little girl he will be just fine and forget about everything else that is going on his world will stop for that second that he holds our baby girl in his arms.
Little things I'm thankful for this week are a little bit of everything and quite a few things. Facebook to keep up with friends and family. It allows me to talk to them and see what they are up to and allows them to talk to me and see how I'm doing and how Charlotte is doing. Google because it give Travis something to do =] Well not really something to do but it helps him be able to understand things that the doctors are telling us. He can look up things we don't understand or we have more questions about. Pinterest because its giving me lots of things to look forward to doing/getting/making once we can go home. Windows I can finally look at my window and see what the weather is like. Even though my view is of a garden with another building across from it at least i can look and and see that its raining or the sun is shining. Hair bows (I'm thankful for these my hubby not quite as much) =] I got quite a few hair bows for Miss Charlotte to wear that will match her outfits. She will be a very fashionable little girl.
I know I need to get better at putting up blogs more often and I will continue to work on it. When Charlotte comes I will start blogging about how she and I are doing because surgery will be soon to follow for this momma. But I most certainly won't forget to include the things we are thankful for. =] I want everyone to remember if there's ever a day you don't feel so good about yourself or something you are doing just remember I appreciate you and I am thankful to have you as part of my life because even if I've only met you for 5 minutes you've made a difference no matter big or small in my life.
Enjoy these cool fall days and nights, hug your loved ones tight and enjoy all the fun activities that come along with fall! <3 I love and appreciate you all!!
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
long lost blogging
I know its been a long time since I've blogged and for those of you that follow I'm so sorry!!! Things have been crazy.
The baby shower was amazing!! I hope everyone that was able to attend had a great time no matter which one they attended. I am thankful for everyone that has helped us celebrate our little girl. She truly is a miracle after all she has been thru. I cannot believe it's almost time for her arrival. And we cannot wait!!! She will be perfect in every way! My favorite thing of all is the homemade blankets we received they are so meaningful and heartfelt. I know Charlotte and I will both love them and use them all the time!! She will use them for as long as possible!
Second thank you to everyone that has posted the fall pictures and sent me the fall pictures! I love them all!! Hopefully Charlotte and I will be home before the end of the month. Yes there is an end in sight!! I hope everyone is remembering to be thankful when they go outside and take in the fresh air and the great smells of fall. I cant wait to get home and make a homemade apple pie :) I'm sure the hubby will love that!
I know quite a bit has been going on in our government and politics since I've been in the hospital and I'll be the first one to say I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS HAPPENING!! I know some people are thinking what is wrong with me I should know what is going on. Well as much as I'd like to know every bit of details it truly scares me and confuses me on how our government has so much going on. But one thing I am sure of is I'm grateful for the great country I live in. We have amazing healthcare which I know I'm certainly very thankful my husband and I have amazing health insurance otherwise I would have zero money for when I leave the hospital if we didn't. And no this isn't a rant about health insurance or the lack of for some people its just me stating I am thankful for what I have.
On another note that is one thing I am sure of especially as of lately. I am sure that I am very thankful for all that I have. I am thankful for my friends, my family, the job that I had, the house I live in (when I'm not living in the hospital). I am thankful for every little thing I have in my life. Although I may not have all the money in the world one thing I do know for sure is that no amount of money would buy all the love that I have in my life or the happiness my life brings me. It has been an emotional few days as I miss home more and more. The thought of what I will have when I go home truly makes me happy - although my husband and I thought we would be able to have our own place before our daughter arrives atleast I have my parents house to go to where I can have the help we need. No one has the perfect life lets face it we would all like to say we do but I realize as long as I am able to breath and talk to/see my loved ones I have all that I need and that is what keeps me going every day is that I know I have everything I need to see me thru this rough time.
My closing thought for the night...Everything happens for a reason. Even though I am not a go to church every Sunday as most of you know-- I am sure of this if God brings you to it he will bring you thru it. So if you are struggling know that you are strong enough to get thru it. If you don't believe that you can make it thru whatever it is you may be going thru just remember this as someone once told me you are a strong intelligent human being with alot to offer! You can make it thru anything <3
The baby shower was amazing!! I hope everyone that was able to attend had a great time no matter which one they attended. I am thankful for everyone that has helped us celebrate our little girl. She truly is a miracle after all she has been thru. I cannot believe it's almost time for her arrival. And we cannot wait!!! She will be perfect in every way! My favorite thing of all is the homemade blankets we received they are so meaningful and heartfelt. I know Charlotte and I will both love them and use them all the time!! She will use them for as long as possible!
Second thank you to everyone that has posted the fall pictures and sent me the fall pictures! I love them all!! Hopefully Charlotte and I will be home before the end of the month. Yes there is an end in sight!! I hope everyone is remembering to be thankful when they go outside and take in the fresh air and the great smells of fall. I cant wait to get home and make a homemade apple pie :) I'm sure the hubby will love that!
I know quite a bit has been going on in our government and politics since I've been in the hospital and I'll be the first one to say I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS HAPPENING!! I know some people are thinking what is wrong with me I should know what is going on. Well as much as I'd like to know every bit of details it truly scares me and confuses me on how our government has so much going on. But one thing I am sure of is I'm grateful for the great country I live in. We have amazing healthcare which I know I'm certainly very thankful my husband and I have amazing health insurance otherwise I would have zero money for when I leave the hospital if we didn't. And no this isn't a rant about health insurance or the lack of for some people its just me stating I am thankful for what I have.
On another note that is one thing I am sure of especially as of lately. I am sure that I am very thankful for all that I have. I am thankful for my friends, my family, the job that I had, the house I live in (when I'm not living in the hospital). I am thankful for every little thing I have in my life. Although I may not have all the money in the world one thing I do know for sure is that no amount of money would buy all the love that I have in my life or the happiness my life brings me. It has been an emotional few days as I miss home more and more. The thought of what I will have when I go home truly makes me happy - although my husband and I thought we would be able to have our own place before our daughter arrives atleast I have my parents house to go to where I can have the help we need. No one has the perfect life lets face it we would all like to say we do but I realize as long as I am able to breath and talk to/see my loved ones I have all that I need and that is what keeps me going every day is that I know I have everything I need to see me thru this rough time.
My closing thought for the night...Everything happens for a reason. Even though I am not a go to church every Sunday as most of you know-- I am sure of this if God brings you to it he will bring you thru it. So if you are struggling know that you are strong enough to get thru it. If you don't believe that you can make it thru whatever it is you may be going thru just remember this as someone once told me you are a strong intelligent human being with alot to offer! You can make it thru anything <3
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Fall Is Here!!!
So tonight's going to be a short one....
First of all I'm thankful for every person in my life. Everyone that has come into my life has made a difference whether they were there for a long time or just a brief time. No matter how big or small they have had an impact on my life. Today I've come to that conclusion because I realize now more than ever every little or big thing that has happened in my life has turned me into the woman I am today. So thanks to all of you that have been nice to me or no so nice to me you've helped me to become this person that I am today. The one I never thought would be able to lay in a hospital bed for the 28 days it started out to be let alone the 67 days I've successfully completed. And if I do say so I'm kicking @$$ at it!!! So thank you!!
Secondly I am so very thankful for my family. I know they are going thru so much right now with me being in the hospital and trying to take care of some things going on with grandma. They are doing a great job at it, and I want them to know especially it doesn't go un-noticed. They continue to support me thru all of the crazy twists and turns this accident has thrown our way and help to support Travis and I in this rough time. Charlotte will be here before we all know it!!! :-)
So now little things I'm grateful for... for starters being able to get things for myself. Like when I want a drink of water being able to go get it myself instead of asking for it. Or being able to go to the post office or mail box to mail out my own letters or pick up my own mail. Also being able to sit up for longer than 15-20 minutes on my own without getting tired or my hip starting to hurt. Being able to sleep on my side is another thing I cannot wait to do!! Sleeping on my back for this long is driving me nuts. Yes I have gotten used to sleeping on my back but I miss sleeping on my belly and my side.
Until Tomorrow, have a great day and enjoy the fall colors and the fall weather <3
First of all I'm thankful for every person in my life. Everyone that has come into my life has made a difference whether they were there for a long time or just a brief time. No matter how big or small they have had an impact on my life. Today I've come to that conclusion because I realize now more than ever every little or big thing that has happened in my life has turned me into the woman I am today. So thanks to all of you that have been nice to me or no so nice to me you've helped me to become this person that I am today. The one I never thought would be able to lay in a hospital bed for the 28 days it started out to be let alone the 67 days I've successfully completed. And if I do say so I'm kicking @$$ at it!!! So thank you!!
Secondly I am so very thankful for my family. I know they are going thru so much right now with me being in the hospital and trying to take care of some things going on with grandma. They are doing a great job at it, and I want them to know especially it doesn't go un-noticed. They continue to support me thru all of the crazy twists and turns this accident has thrown our way and help to support Travis and I in this rough time. Charlotte will be here before we all know it!!! :-)
So now little things I'm grateful for... for starters being able to get things for myself. Like when I want a drink of water being able to go get it myself instead of asking for it. Or being able to go to the post office or mail box to mail out my own letters or pick up my own mail. Also being able to sit up for longer than 15-20 minutes on my own without getting tired or my hip starting to hurt. Being able to sleep on my side is another thing I cannot wait to do!! Sleeping on my back for this long is driving me nuts. Yes I have gotten used to sleeping on my back but I miss sleeping on my belly and my side.
Until Tomorrow, have a great day and enjoy the fall colors and the fall weather <3
Monday, September 23, 2013
Making up for lost time
Sorry its been a while since I've updated you all. I've been in quite a bit of pain from the kidney stones. They make me quite uncomfortable making it almost impossible for me to sit up and type or to remain comfortable for longer than 5 minutes. But today I've figured out how to lay down and type at the same time.
Yesterday was my birthday as most of you know. I am quite thankful for all of my family and friends that wished me a happy birthday. I'm thankful that birthdays mean so much to my family because they make the day truly feel all about you and a true celebration of your life. Even though I am in the hospital and its not ideally where I want to celebrate my birthday at least I was able to celebrate with them. I was alive to share this birthday with them. I am thankful for the 24 wonderful birthdays I have had with them.
I know I've said this before but I really am very thankful for my amazing husband and our strong little angel. Days are becoming longer for me and starting to get harder more emotional. However, my husband and daughter are my light at the end of this long tunnel. I cannot wait for the day to go home and be with my wonderful family. I keep telling Travis when I can get home I will never be letting him leave me. Travis has been so supportive thru this crazy time. He has listened to my meltdowns over simple things that normally wouldn't upset me. He will be an incredibly amazing father I'm sure of it. When some people wouldn't be able to handle situations like this he has faced it head on with me and stayed right beside me going out of his way to do anything he can to support me. He's truly my angel and the love of my life.
I'm thankful for my mom and my mother in law for all they have done to get the baby showers together for our family. I know a lot of people think that we should wait until I am released from the hospital but what I think some are forgetting is after 10 weeks of being in a hospital room I need something to look forward to, something to help pass the time and help keep my spirits up. The baby shower was planned when we thought I was coming home after 6 weeks, therefore I had already started looking forward to it. To have that taken from me at this point would be heartbreaking. We have lost so much as a family because of this accident and the poor decision of one person that we were not going to let her take anything else from us. So thank you to all that have helped plan and that are going to help pull off the two showers for us. We greatly appreciate it!
Little things I am thankful for and cannot wait to do.... Make a home cooked meals and bake anything!!! I can't wait to be able to cook a wonderful dinner for my family and bake anything I want for dessert. Something I look forward to this year thanksgiving and Christmas. Hopefully I will be able to walk by thanksgiving but I know that Charlotte will be very loved and our family will have alot to be thankful for this year. Christmas is our favorite time of year I cant wait to start decorating and seeing all the Christmas lights. Charlotte is going to have a truly amazing first Christmas! I also look forward to setting up Charlotte's room when she gets home. The closer it gets to her arrival the more excited I am about anything that involves her and Travis. I am very excited, thankful and blessed to have my amazing family!!
Until tomorrow <3 ohhh and for those of you posting the pictures of the leaves or texting me pictures of the changing leaves--- Thank you!!! I love them!!!
Yesterday was my birthday as most of you know. I am quite thankful for all of my family and friends that wished me a happy birthday. I'm thankful that birthdays mean so much to my family because they make the day truly feel all about you and a true celebration of your life. Even though I am in the hospital and its not ideally where I want to celebrate my birthday at least I was able to celebrate with them. I was alive to share this birthday with them. I am thankful for the 24 wonderful birthdays I have had with them.
I know I've said this before but I really am very thankful for my amazing husband and our strong little angel. Days are becoming longer for me and starting to get harder more emotional. However, my husband and daughter are my light at the end of this long tunnel. I cannot wait for the day to go home and be with my wonderful family. I keep telling Travis when I can get home I will never be letting him leave me. Travis has been so supportive thru this crazy time. He has listened to my meltdowns over simple things that normally wouldn't upset me. He will be an incredibly amazing father I'm sure of it. When some people wouldn't be able to handle situations like this he has faced it head on with me and stayed right beside me going out of his way to do anything he can to support me. He's truly my angel and the love of my life.
I'm thankful for my mom and my mother in law for all they have done to get the baby showers together for our family. I know a lot of people think that we should wait until I am released from the hospital but what I think some are forgetting is after 10 weeks of being in a hospital room I need something to look forward to, something to help pass the time and help keep my spirits up. The baby shower was planned when we thought I was coming home after 6 weeks, therefore I had already started looking forward to it. To have that taken from me at this point would be heartbreaking. We have lost so much as a family because of this accident and the poor decision of one person that we were not going to let her take anything else from us. So thank you to all that have helped plan and that are going to help pull off the two showers for us. We greatly appreciate it!
Little things I am thankful for and cannot wait to do.... Make a home cooked meals and bake anything!!! I can't wait to be able to cook a wonderful dinner for my family and bake anything I want for dessert. Something I look forward to this year thanksgiving and Christmas. Hopefully I will be able to walk by thanksgiving but I know that Charlotte will be very loved and our family will have alot to be thankful for this year. Christmas is our favorite time of year I cant wait to start decorating and seeing all the Christmas lights. Charlotte is going to have a truly amazing first Christmas! I also look forward to setting up Charlotte's room when she gets home. The closer it gets to her arrival the more excited I am about anything that involves her and Travis. I am very excited, thankful and blessed to have my amazing family!!
Until tomorrow <3 ohhh and for those of you posting the pictures of the leaves or texting me pictures of the changing leaves--- Thank you!!! I love them!!!
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Making up for a skipped day
Sorry to all that read daily that I missed last night I was in some pretty bad pain and not really able to tolerate sitting up.
Today I'm thankful for my health. Although I may be lying in a hospital bed at least I've remained remotely healthy other than the kidney stones and liver stuff. But my body is overall healthy for our daughter. I realize that I could be far worse off than just a few bumps here and there. And those bumps really are tiny bumps that could be so much worse but I have been so blessed that they are bumps that we have been able to get figured out and I'm recovering so much better now. If it weren't for my leg being bummed up I would be home but thats something I have come to accept. I mean honestly if I was home there would be no way for me to see my daughter or hear her heart beat as often as we do. And as i was reminded a few weeks ago our little girl will be a celebrity I mean how many babies do we know get their pictures taken weekly for 10 weeks?!? I love every picture and cherish each and every one of them.
Secondly I'm thankful for toes. Sounds funny I know!! Trust me But the ultrasound today showed little miss Charlotte sucking on her toes. It made me giggle I never thought I would be so excited to see those little toes right to her mouth and her sucking on them. She looks so content just having her toes, not a single care in the world. Not only am I thankful for her toes but for mine. Our niece used to come and paint them over the summer when her schedule wasnt so crazy and deffinatly I appreciated it. It made me feel like a real human being some days. They are still the pretty pink she painted them last. But now shes back to school with a crazy busy schedule so the pink will stay until she gets a chance to repaint them but until then it reminds me of her. And every time a doctor comments on them I smile because I know someone very special painted them just for me.
Simple things to be thankful for hair cuts is the first on my list. The last hair cut I had was the day of the accident and thank goodness I got it cut that night. I think if it was any longer than it was that night my parents would have a more difficult time washing it for me. So as soon as I'm able to I will be going to get a haircut and having a full "beauty" day to get myself back to looking somewhat normal. Second thing I am thankful for laughter its the best medicine. Although I've had some very emotional days I always remember laughter is the best medicine and whenever I have the chance to laugh I do especially the days I have company to laugh with especially days like today when my family comes to visit. So share a funny story or a joke or two because you never know who you could be helping with that laughter.
Have a wonderful evening <3
Today I'm thankful for my health. Although I may be lying in a hospital bed at least I've remained remotely healthy other than the kidney stones and liver stuff. But my body is overall healthy for our daughter. I realize that I could be far worse off than just a few bumps here and there. And those bumps really are tiny bumps that could be so much worse but I have been so blessed that they are bumps that we have been able to get figured out and I'm recovering so much better now. If it weren't for my leg being bummed up I would be home but thats something I have come to accept. I mean honestly if I was home there would be no way for me to see my daughter or hear her heart beat as often as we do. And as i was reminded a few weeks ago our little girl will be a celebrity I mean how many babies do we know get their pictures taken weekly for 10 weeks?!? I love every picture and cherish each and every one of them.
Secondly I'm thankful for toes. Sounds funny I know!! Trust me But the ultrasound today showed little miss Charlotte sucking on her toes. It made me giggle I never thought I would be so excited to see those little toes right to her mouth and her sucking on them. She looks so content just having her toes, not a single care in the world. Not only am I thankful for her toes but for mine. Our niece used to come and paint them over the summer when her schedule wasnt so crazy and deffinatly I appreciated it. It made me feel like a real human being some days. They are still the pretty pink she painted them last. But now shes back to school with a crazy busy schedule so the pink will stay until she gets a chance to repaint them but until then it reminds me of her. And every time a doctor comments on them I smile because I know someone very special painted them just for me.
Simple things to be thankful for hair cuts is the first on my list. The last hair cut I had was the day of the accident and thank goodness I got it cut that night. I think if it was any longer than it was that night my parents would have a more difficult time washing it for me. So as soon as I'm able to I will be going to get a haircut and having a full "beauty" day to get myself back to looking somewhat normal. Second thing I am thankful for laughter its the best medicine. Although I've had some very emotional days I always remember laughter is the best medicine and whenever I have the chance to laugh I do especially the days I have company to laugh with especially days like today when my family comes to visit. So share a funny story or a joke or two because you never know who you could be helping with that laughter.
Have a wonderful evening <3
Monday, September 16, 2013
feeling a bit better
So I have yet again another confused roommate. This one however thinks she is in Italy and all she keeps asking for is a cigarette lighter and some vino. She however sleeps at night so I get a bit more sleep than with the last confused roommate. She has been asking for her cat all day so today it makes me miss my puppy. My puppy Bella is like my child already, she always seemed to be able to brighten my day up. I miss laying in bed cuddling with her or just being greeted by her when i get home from work, she was always so excited to see me. My mom keeps telling me she still looks out the window when they get there because she hears the car door shut and hopes its mommy coming back home.
I also miss my job - I know some of you may be thinking that I'm crazy. I miss my fellow nurses, fellow staff and all of the students. Even though there were trying days with things that may have been going on at least I was able to go to work and try to help others. I'm hoping I may be able to return to work one day but only time will tell with my injury it might not be possible. But every person I have ever worked with made a difference in my life and I am so grateful for each and every one of them.
I'm so incredibly lucky to be alive. I've been thinking about that so much lately. So many people ask me how I can stay so strong. Well here's just a few reasons why...October 18, 2008 I lost my best friend in an accident. Meghan was killed by a drunk driver. Between her, Charlotte, and Travis they keep me going. Meghan didn't get the chance to live her life to the fullest so it makes me realize that i am so incredibly blessed to still be alive. I may be struggling right now and have some struggles to face still but at least I know I will get that opportunity to face those struggles. Not only I am still alive but that Travis and Charlotte are both still alive, some people aren't so lucky. So whenever someone asks me how I stay so strong that's my answer because we had angels watching over us that night that saved our lives. I'm lucky to be alive. And we will continue to face the struggles together with the support of our family and friends.
Little things I'm thankful for today water!! Ice water for that matter some of you may think its crazy that I'm so thankful for water. But I've had tons of kidney stones lately and drinking tons of water is helping them to pass. The more I drink the better it is. Another thing Netflix and Amazon Prime. They have been my saving grace during the hospital stay. I absolutely refused to pay the $5.50 daily for tv. Instead I would rather pay for the netflix and amazon and be able to watch shows without commercials or watch movies at my leisure. Its kept me busy and I've been able to watch several shows. There's not much else for me to do. But I do have tons of cross stitching thanks to my aunt that I've been working on but the more time i have the more time i think it should look perfect so if it doesn't look right I tear it out and start again. Then there's the cross words and word finds that also keep me busy. So I'm thankful for those busy distractions that keep me going all day!
Until Tomorrow Goodnight everyone<3
I also miss my job - I know some of you may be thinking that I'm crazy. I miss my fellow nurses, fellow staff and all of the students. Even though there were trying days with things that may have been going on at least I was able to go to work and try to help others. I'm hoping I may be able to return to work one day but only time will tell with my injury it might not be possible. But every person I have ever worked with made a difference in my life and I am so grateful for each and every one of them.
I'm so incredibly lucky to be alive. I've been thinking about that so much lately. So many people ask me how I can stay so strong. Well here's just a few reasons why...October 18, 2008 I lost my best friend in an accident. Meghan was killed by a drunk driver. Between her, Charlotte, and Travis they keep me going. Meghan didn't get the chance to live her life to the fullest so it makes me realize that i am so incredibly blessed to still be alive. I may be struggling right now and have some struggles to face still but at least I know I will get that opportunity to face those struggles. Not only I am still alive but that Travis and Charlotte are both still alive, some people aren't so lucky. So whenever someone asks me how I stay so strong that's my answer because we had angels watching over us that night that saved our lives. I'm lucky to be alive. And we will continue to face the struggles together with the support of our family and friends.
Little things I'm thankful for today water!! Ice water for that matter some of you may think its crazy that I'm so thankful for water. But I've had tons of kidney stones lately and drinking tons of water is helping them to pass. The more I drink the better it is. Another thing Netflix and Amazon Prime. They have been my saving grace during the hospital stay. I absolutely refused to pay the $5.50 daily for tv. Instead I would rather pay for the netflix and amazon and be able to watch shows without commercials or watch movies at my leisure. Its kept me busy and I've been able to watch several shows. There's not much else for me to do. But I do have tons of cross stitching thanks to my aunt that I've been working on but the more time i have the more time i think it should look perfect so if it doesn't look right I tear it out and start again. Then there's the cross words and word finds that also keep me busy. So I'm thankful for those busy distractions that keep me going all day!
Until Tomorrow Goodnight everyone<3
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Just a short one tonight
Today after talking with my roommate from college and her mom about some activities that go on in the fall made me realize I am thankful for the changing of the seasons. I love that in new york we get to see the changing of the leaves in fall the first snow fall of the winter the wonderful blossoms of the spring and the excruciatingly hot days of the summer. Fall is my favorite time of year. The changing of the leaves is my favorite thing to see this time of year. So when the leaves start changing colors think of me and take a picture or two. I won't get a chance to see them in person this year because it will probably be November before I make my break out of this place. So put some pictures on facebook for me! Apple picking is another thing to do up there on the list so pick and extra apple or two. And enjoy the smells and sights of the fall.
Today my parents came to visit just as they do every Sunday. Well I had an awful headache so they let me sleep. Thank goodness. But they help me get cleaned up and wash my hair. I think dad likes helping wash my hair because he gets to soak me then say sorry I didnt mean that. But I deffinatly miss showers. I cannot wait until the day i can take a shower again. So when your taking a shower tonight or tomorrow morning stay in an extra minute or two for me. That way I will get a nice long shower vicariously thru all of you. =]
Tonights entry is fairly short, I've got a pretty bad headache but I promise I'll make up for it tomorrow <3
Today my parents came to visit just as they do every Sunday. Well I had an awful headache so they let me sleep. Thank goodness. But they help me get cleaned up and wash my hair. I think dad likes helping wash my hair because he gets to soak me then say sorry I didnt mean that. But I deffinatly miss showers. I cannot wait until the day i can take a shower again. So when your taking a shower tonight or tomorrow morning stay in an extra minute or two for me. That way I will get a nice long shower vicariously thru all of you. =]
Tonights entry is fairly short, I've got a pretty bad headache but I promise I'll make up for it tomorrow <3
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Day 56...The journey continues
After being in traction for 56 days I finally convinced my hubby he could lay in the hospital bed and cuddle with me. It was the most wonderful feeling in the world to get to cuddle with him after not cuddling for so long. So today I appreciate my amazingly wonderful supportive husband. Last night was really rough for me so I called him every few hours to give him an update on how baby and I were doing and he faithfully answered the phone every time I called - even though he had worked a 13 hour day and was exhausted. Some people would sleep right thru phone calls but he worries about his wife and daughter. He's such a selfless person he thinks of everyone else before himself. He would do anything to help me if there was anything he could do. So I feel very lucky and blessed to have such a wonderful husband and father to my daughter.
So many people have helped my family and I out so much since the accident. From my amazing sorority sister starting a fundraiser to help with my Tastefully Simple, to people that don't even know me ordering from the cause, or the donations people have sent for our family or the many cards and gifts we've received its all been greatly appreciated. It puts so much faith in me to know that there are still such wonderful people in the world, and we are very blessed to have them in our lives. So thank you to those wonderful people that have shown such support to us in this difficult time for us. It always brightens my spirits when I get those random get well cards or those just to say hello cards, the packages with the activities to help pass time, the random flowers and just the messages checking in. I know that my husband and I are very loved and cared about and I'm quite certain our daughter will be so loved and cared about! Thank you so much to everyone who has done anything for us no matter how big or small it is greatly appreciated!!! We love you all!
Little things to be thankful for today well mine truly are very little things. First bending your knee. My knee has been straight since I've been in traction. And for those of you that I've talked to I keep saying what I wouldn't give to be able to bend my knee. I can only imagine the long road it will take me to be able to bend it again. But when I can finally bend it again I'm quite positive I'll sleep much better. Plus I'll be able to walk when I can bend it again which is so close I can start to see that light!!! Secondly I'm thankful for phones. Because of the wonderful technology of phones I am able to talk to family and friends that live all over near and far. It allows me to keep in touch with people and keep them up to date on what is happening and how Charlotte is doing. So take the minute or two to pick up the phone and call that loved one you haven't talked to in a while. It will help you both appreciate the technology we have! <3
So many people have helped my family and I out so much since the accident. From my amazing sorority sister starting a fundraiser to help with my Tastefully Simple, to people that don't even know me ordering from the cause, or the donations people have sent for our family or the many cards and gifts we've received its all been greatly appreciated. It puts so much faith in me to know that there are still such wonderful people in the world, and we are very blessed to have them in our lives. So thank you to those wonderful people that have shown such support to us in this difficult time for us. It always brightens my spirits when I get those random get well cards or those just to say hello cards, the packages with the activities to help pass time, the random flowers and just the messages checking in. I know that my husband and I are very loved and cared about and I'm quite certain our daughter will be so loved and cared about! Thank you so much to everyone who has done anything for us no matter how big or small it is greatly appreciated!!! We love you all!
Little things to be thankful for today well mine truly are very little things. First bending your knee. My knee has been straight since I've been in traction. And for those of you that I've talked to I keep saying what I wouldn't give to be able to bend my knee. I can only imagine the long road it will take me to be able to bend it again. But when I can finally bend it again I'm quite positive I'll sleep much better. Plus I'll be able to walk when I can bend it again which is so close I can start to see that light!!! Secondly I'm thankful for phones. Because of the wonderful technology of phones I am able to talk to family and friends that live all over near and far. It allows me to keep in touch with people and keep them up to date on what is happening and how Charlotte is doing. So take the minute or two to pick up the phone and call that loved one you haven't talked to in a while. It will help you both appreciate the technology we have! <3
Friday, September 13, 2013
So Far So Good...Lets Try Again
So today I've got a few more lessons learned.
As some of you may read on Facebook I had a confused roommate she was 86 years old. Bless her heart. She had no clue where she was or what she was doing here. Her family would come visit and she would be okay because they would take the time to explain to her where she was and what she was doing here - but as soon as she left she was confused again. Now at first it was comical to hear her ask questions that to me seemed silly. But she left today and as I talked to one of the techs he put it in perspective for me. Shes made it to 86 years old, up until recently she was with it she knew where she was and what she was doing. Now all of a sudden to be confused and not know where you are or whats going on its got to be scary. I cant imagine being in a strange place and having no clue what is going on. So as the tech and I talked it made me realize how very lucky I am to still have all my "wits" about me. To know what I'm doing here and why I'm here. It makes me think if my anyone in my family ever got that way would I be able to remain as supportive as her family has? I'd like to say yes but I'm really not so sure. Her family had such patience about them to keep reminding her what had happened. And of course I love everyone in my family and would try to be as supportive as possible but I would feel awful for them to be so lost and confused. So today that's what I think about is how much I love my family and friends and hope that no one has to experience that and if they do that we can be just half as supportive as my confused roommate.
Now I've been thru quite a few roommates in my time here. Some nicer than others. But one thing I can honestly say I have learned thru the rotating roommates is that I'm very blessed for all that I have. I have a wonderful supportive and loving family, great friends, I have a wonderful baby on the way, an amazing husband and I'm just entirely overwelmed with the love and support I have in my life.
The little things I've learned to appreciated today well that's very simple for me. First of all just standing up and giving hugs. I miss being able to stand up and wrap my arms around my husband and the rest of my family and friends and give them a hug. Instead I give them the akward side hug because I can't embrace them the way I could if I was standing up and not stuck to a bed. So every chance you get give just one extra hug and appreciate that hug. Even though the accident happened on our way home from a date night I miss my date nights with my husband. Even though we couldn't afford to do much we always made time to go out and enjoy ourselves out once in a while, even if it was just walking around window shopping and grabbing Chinese food in the mall for dinner. We always made the time to spend with each other. I cannot wait to be able to have a date night with him and our little angel.
I hope you all enjoy reading my blog and continue to follow us thru this time. <3
As some of you may read on Facebook I had a confused roommate she was 86 years old. Bless her heart. She had no clue where she was or what she was doing here. Her family would come visit and she would be okay because they would take the time to explain to her where she was and what she was doing here - but as soon as she left she was confused again. Now at first it was comical to hear her ask questions that to me seemed silly. But she left today and as I talked to one of the techs he put it in perspective for me. Shes made it to 86 years old, up until recently she was with it she knew where she was and what she was doing. Now all of a sudden to be confused and not know where you are or whats going on its got to be scary. I cant imagine being in a strange place and having no clue what is going on. So as the tech and I talked it made me realize how very lucky I am to still have all my "wits" about me. To know what I'm doing here and why I'm here. It makes me think if my anyone in my family ever got that way would I be able to remain as supportive as her family has? I'd like to say yes but I'm really not so sure. Her family had such patience about them to keep reminding her what had happened. And of course I love everyone in my family and would try to be as supportive as possible but I would feel awful for them to be so lost and confused. So today that's what I think about is how much I love my family and friends and hope that no one has to experience that and if they do that we can be just half as supportive as my confused roommate.
Now I've been thru quite a few roommates in my time here. Some nicer than others. But one thing I can honestly say I have learned thru the rotating roommates is that I'm very blessed for all that I have. I have a wonderful supportive and loving family, great friends, I have a wonderful baby on the way, an amazing husband and I'm just entirely overwelmed with the love and support I have in my life.
The little things I've learned to appreciated today well that's very simple for me. First of all just standing up and giving hugs. I miss being able to stand up and wrap my arms around my husband and the rest of my family and friends and give them a hug. Instead I give them the akward side hug because I can't embrace them the way I could if I was standing up and not stuck to a bed. So every chance you get give just one extra hug and appreciate that hug. Even though the accident happened on our way home from a date night I miss my date nights with my husband. Even though we couldn't afford to do much we always made time to go out and enjoy ourselves out once in a while, even if it was just walking around window shopping and grabbing Chinese food in the mall for dinner. We always made the time to spend with each other. I cannot wait to be able to have a date night with him and our little angel.
I hope you all enjoy reading my blog and continue to follow us thru this time. <3
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Trying out this blogging thing
As most of you that are reading this probably already know the story of whats going on in my life...But for those of you that may not know I'll give you the short version. I'm pregnant my husband and i are expecting our first baby girl. My husband and I were involved in a car accident back in July. Well long story short everyone is okay, my hubby, daughter and myself...well I'm okay with the exception I've been in the hospital for 54 days today in traction...which for some of you may not know is laying in bed all day every day 24/7. Yes that means no showering, no getting up to go to the bathroom ahhh yeah it sucks but I'm making the best of it and learning TONS of lessons along the way. Many nurses friends and family have told me I should start a blog because of everything we've been thru. So I thought I would share some of my lessons learned and some of the experiences.
I think most important lesson I've learned is that I'm so incredibly blessed. I have an incredible support system with my family and friends. Even though my parents and I haven't always seen eye to eye on a lot of things they have been absolutely amazing and supportive. My husband's family have been great from the cards every week to the phone calls they are always checking up on us. My friends have been wonderful with the calls and texts and just the simple check ups to see how I'm doing. You learn to appreciate the little moments in life when faced with something hard like this.
I've learned the nurses here are absolutely amazing-- i know not really something I've learned but something i definitely appreciate. After 54 days one would think they would be sick of me but they still come in every day with a smile on their face and take terrific care of us. They come in and treat you with the best care possible. After having these wonderful nurses I've decided that when I can go back to nursing school to get my RN I'm going to rock it and work so hard at it to become one of these amazing nurses that patients love.
My daughter is very loved. When she is born everyone is going to just fall in love with her. We've spent quite a bit of time worrying about her. Hoping and praying she is going to be okay. We know that she is going to be a strong fighter and she will be an incredible little girl. Its an incredible feeling having her move inside my belly. Its really rough not being able to have her daddy be able to see her grow and feeling her move everyday but he loves her unconditionally and the days he is here he loves feeling her move and talking to her. I know shes already going to be daddy's little angel.
APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS!! Sometimes you get lost in the every day to day life and forget to appreciate the little things. This is something that I've come to realize probably in my first few days here. But I know when I get home and get walking again I will appreciate being able to cook, to clean, to fold laundry. I know some days you just don't feel like doing those things but these are some of the things I miss doing. Other things you forget to be thankful for - bathrooms, showers, running water things that some don't have. I cannot wait until the day that I can go into my bathroom and pee and take a shower and stand at the sink to be able to brush my teeth. Somethings I'm just very appreciative for....that is when I can use them.... =]
Well I think that's where I'll leave it for today. I learn something new every day so I will post again tomorrow <3 Thanks for reading =]
I think most important lesson I've learned is that I'm so incredibly blessed. I have an incredible support system with my family and friends. Even though my parents and I haven't always seen eye to eye on a lot of things they have been absolutely amazing and supportive. My husband's family have been great from the cards every week to the phone calls they are always checking up on us. My friends have been wonderful with the calls and texts and just the simple check ups to see how I'm doing. You learn to appreciate the little moments in life when faced with something hard like this.
I've learned the nurses here are absolutely amazing-- i know not really something I've learned but something i definitely appreciate. After 54 days one would think they would be sick of me but they still come in every day with a smile on their face and take terrific care of us. They come in and treat you with the best care possible. After having these wonderful nurses I've decided that when I can go back to nursing school to get my RN I'm going to rock it and work so hard at it to become one of these amazing nurses that patients love.
My daughter is very loved. When she is born everyone is going to just fall in love with her. We've spent quite a bit of time worrying about her. Hoping and praying she is going to be okay. We know that she is going to be a strong fighter and she will be an incredible little girl. Its an incredible feeling having her move inside my belly. Its really rough not being able to have her daddy be able to see her grow and feeling her move everyday but he loves her unconditionally and the days he is here he loves feeling her move and talking to her. I know shes already going to be daddy's little angel.
APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS!! Sometimes you get lost in the every day to day life and forget to appreciate the little things. This is something that I've come to realize probably in my first few days here. But I know when I get home and get walking again I will appreciate being able to cook, to clean, to fold laundry. I know some days you just don't feel like doing those things but these are some of the things I miss doing. Other things you forget to be thankful for - bathrooms, showers, running water things that some don't have. I cannot wait until the day that I can go into my bathroom and pee and take a shower and stand at the sink to be able to brush my teeth. Somethings I'm just very appreciative for....that is when I can use them.... =]
Well I think that's where I'll leave it for today. I learn something new every day so I will post again tomorrow <3 Thanks for reading =]
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